putting it out there

I'm writing this here because well, I only have one follower here since moving a lot of my entries over from LiveJournal and I really don't want a bunch of pitty. Perhaps down the road this entry will be important or perhaps mark a moment in time. Who knows.

I've been fighting off some serious headaches for the past 2+ months. And I don't get headaches. We're talking about a searing white hot bolt of lightning centered on the right side of my head that at times can drop me to my knees and others wake me from a dead sleep. And the strange part is they rarely last more than a few minutes with the longest lasting a few hours.

I don't have health insurance and between my fledgling business and basic existence every cent I have is spoken for. What few prescriptions I have are long exhausted and I hadn't been to the doctors in over a year. Doctors cost money and it just didn't seem like a good use of limited resources.

Short end of it is I finally called my doctor to get a refill on a blood pressure med he had prescribed for me a while back. I had some borderline BP issues and he thought it would be a good idea - one of the scripts I let lag. Having not been to see my doctor in over a year he asked that I come in for a visit. Elevated BP can certainly cause headaches and if nothing else I would get back on that script. Two weeks and $210 later ($110 just for the visit, $80 for an HIV screen - negative, $20 script) here I sit, still having these crazy headaches and with no options.

I pretty much had one of the worst events this evening prompting me to write this entry.

So what next? I'm just a guy making his way in a world where it appears I've fallen through the health care cracks. Starting to worry about what may be causing these events as I like to call them. Attacks sound so premeditated. But if the doctor's visit is $110 just to walk in the door I wonder what a CAT Scan might cost.